Emotional honesty is important in cancer survival
Today I hate everything and everyone.
I hate everyone who is healthy. It’s just not fair.
I hate tumor markers that are going up instead of down. Is this chemo even working?
I hate yoga. It’s painful. My body might feel good afterwards, but my hamstrings are too tight, my hips too damaged and I have no upper body strength to lift a leg in the air in downward facing dog. Who even thought that was a good idea.
I hate kale and I believe people who like it have just not tasted butter lettuce.
I hate chemo infusions, shots, pain and diarrhea.
I hate clouds, clouds, clouds and cold and freezing drizzle. What’s wrong with this weather?
I hate impeachment day time tv. I hate everyone in Washington. This is all just to create the biggest loser.
I hate anyone who can run a 5k or beyond. I really miss the freedom of a run.
I hate anyone well enough to get up before 7:am and drive to work. WAIT ~ WAIT ~ I’m retired. I don’t even want to do that.
Okay, thanks. I feel better now.